27th Birthday 2019
I feel a little emotional today because today is my last birthday as an unmarried person. I feel like a bit scared to move on. I just wanna stay now. Because whatever that comes in the future is pretty scary. As I age, my parents will also age. And that's scary too. I also will miss the freedom I have. Waking up alone in my bed, during my birthday. Knowing that I'm free to do anything I want. Is this normal? I don't know. All I can do now is to surrender my future into God's hands. Because it is just too scary. Like how Corrie's father said to her. God will pass the heavier luggage to me only when the time comes. For then, I would be able to handle it already. I'm grateful that I know Jesus. The only constant thing in my life. Today I wanted to go to cell group because I want to start my 27th year with God's fellowship people. But I feel like I would be awkward there as there will be celebration for Lene's birthday. Plus, I don't really know these ...